Adriana and Jesse - First Love (Part 3)

Jesse’s POV

I don’t know what changed but I no longer feel butterflies in my stomach whenever I met Adriana. I guess it’s true that love fades away. It didn’t change quickly, but through small negligence, I started to chat her less, I started to not wanna see her as often. I’m just tired. I’m tired of Adriana, I can’t pinpoint what is it that I feel lacking but it’s just not the same.

I no longer want to be with her but I don’t know how to say it. Our relationship is not the same. I want to be left alone, I want my space, I’m starting to tear us apart. I just want us over. In a way I’m afraid of the future where I no longer have her and I try to conceal, keep it to myself but I can’t continue fooling her or pretend that I am happy when I feel myself pulling away from her.

Adriana’s POV

I could feel him fading away, his touch no longer has the warmth it used to, his words pierced as he told me he wanted us over. Was it something I did? I quickly turn to blame myself for us falling apart. I honestly thought there was something I could do to fix us but the cold reality is there’s nothing I could do.

I’m mature enough to understand that when one person in a relationship give up, it’s done. There’s no way a relationship could work with only one person trying her best. I honestly thought we could work and I really did try but I can’t be the only one putting in the work.

It hurts me when Jesse said goodbye, to tell you the truth I lost a piece of myself. We’ve been together for four years. But he didn’t show up when it mattered the most. He left me sad and all alone.

Third person POV

Months later

It started small, Adriana picked herself up slowly. She could feel a hollow in her heart where her love used to live. It wasn’t easy, sometimes she would take two steps forward one step back. Every part of Yogyakarta remind her of Jesse, the shop where their first date was, cinema where they used to watch movie together, a minimarket where Jesse would buy his ice cream at. It’s still a part of Adriana, the nights she would spend crying because she missed him so badly. However, Adriana learned who she was, she learned what she would tolerate. And fixing parts of her heart that was broken to pieces. Piece by piece she built herself up again.

And now, she is able to be herself again. She fully let him go. It started to small, some days she would go about her own business then realize she has not thought about Jesse until that very moment. It’s a moment of small victory. She learns how to live without Jesse – she doesn’t wait for his call anymore – she goes about her day oblivious to the fact she no longer has him. Though sometimes she would be reminded of him, it’s all in her memory. She understands that Jesse was part of her life and now he isn’t anymore. She learn from what Jesse taught her – both good and bad – and she go forward knowing she came out wiser.

END

Dear readers,

Hi! Wow I finally finished this story. Throughout writing this mini 3-part series I learned to write as though the characters of this story are alive. Today, I went and watched a movie on my own. The cinema was full of people, I imagined each person has their own stories to tell and I feel instant happiness. It’s like I could create mini stories about each person in my life. Hopefully I could be a writer one day. Thank you for sticking around and reading this ending. I hope you have a wonderful day, and happy new year 2020.

Love,

Laras